I finally learn to cycle!!!

1st of all, i like to thanks Qian Ru for suggesting cycling at ECP. Grateful to have such a nice friend =) I used to think that it will be easier if i learn cycling on my own, no pressure from the others, wont be pai seh if i fall or anything. BUT.. but.. i find that i am wrong.. It is very likely i will give up myself as there is no motivation at all, always telling myself i can easily learn some other time and that time will never come. haha..

Yesterday, though i was very scared i will fall, very nervous, i grip the handle so tightly until the whole skin of my right thumb skin came off. CAn u imagine how tight is my hand? In the end, my hand is much much more tired than my legs. lol... I knew my problem so kept reminding myself to relax and not hold the handle so tightly. however, i only loosen my grip after i can cycle after many many tries.. soooooooooo happy..

Sad..

1st time rejected donating blood. Haiz..

越走越远

越走越远 云到底要往哪里飞
能不能把我的思念 带回那个小小的屋檐
站在窗前 看着云在陪我掉眼泪
寂寞没有人能了解 却把整片天空都染灰
想要试着勇敢一点 我闭上了双眼
跟昨天说再见 不知道有什么人听见
想要试着长大一点 人总是要改变
一个人去面对 也许还要多一点时间

站在窗前 看着云在陪我掉眼泪
寂寞没有人能了解 却把整片天空都染灰
想要试着勇敢一点 我闭上了双眼
跟昨天说再见 不知道有什么人听见
想要试着长大一点 人总是要改变
一个人去面对 也许还要多一点时间

越走越远 云到底要往哪里飞
能不能把我的思念 带回那个小小的屋檐
越走越远 每件事总会变成从前
只是明天来临之前 今夜我还是一样失眠

我相信

想飞上天
和太阳肩并肩
世界等着我去改变
想做的梦
从不怕别人看见
在这里我都能实现
大声欢笑让你我肩并肩
何处不能欢乐无限
抛开烦恼
勇敢的大步向前
我就站在舞台中间
我相信我就是我
我相信明天
我相信青春没有地平线
在日落的海边
在热闹的大街
都是我心中最美的乐园
我相信自由自在
我相信希望
我相信伸手就能碰到天
有你在我身边
让生活更新鲜
每一刻都精采万分
i do believe

food for thought..

These few months had been hx lowest moments. hx had been lost, did wrong and silly things. Hx knew that Lao Mu is trying to tell hx something and hx really want to start learning all over again. hx emotion is still quite unstable. however, hx have to keep reminding myself to snap out of it. hx had come so far to give up now.

hx had ask alot of people alot of questions and told them different part of what happen to hx and hx realised that it is impossible to let anyone know what actually happen. hx is the one that know best and hx is the one that have to wake up and move on with life.

hx had wasted a lot of time le. however, hx know that it takes time for hx to recover and determination to the key to hx success. no matter how long it takes, hx must keep faith. Believe in LM. Believe in myself. No one can help hx if hx choose to give up. so Jia you... Remember why hx come into this dao chang. My dreams, my vision, my destiny...

最初的梦想

如果骄傲没被现实大海冷冷拍下
又怎会懂得要多努力
才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖
千钧一发
又怎会晓得执着的人
拥有隐形翅牓
把眼泪装在心上
会开出勇敢的花
可以在疲惫的时光
闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮
又能边走着边哼着歌
用轻快的步伐
沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量
多渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀
很高兴一路上我们的默契那么长
穿过风又绕个弯心还连着
像往常一样
最初的梦想紧握在手上
最想要去的地方
怎么能在半路就返航
最初的梦想绝对会到达
实现了真的渴望
才能够算到过了天堂

Staying Focused On Your Path

It's time to do something about your life - you need to be more disciplined, you need to take care of your health, you want to adopt a more positive attitude, you need to save enough money for retirement, you want to be a better partner, a better son, a better mother. You've had enough of being directionless in life and are looking forward to achieving the goals you've set for yourself.

But wait, what's lurking on the sidelines that can derail you from your path? Those well-meaning friends and relatives who, with all good intention, pass along clutter from their house to yours? - "this would look great on you", or "I can't use this but maybe you can".

What about the people around you who seem to dwell on the negative or tell stories about how unfair life is?

What about relatives and friends who shy away from your newfound honesty and assertiveness?

They probably don't mean any harm but they may DO you harm if they steer you away from the goals you've set for yourself. So how do you put yourself first and get selfish, so to speak, when others are tempting you to stray?

First of all, be very clear yourself about the goals you're eyeing. If you're unsteady in your commitment, that will show, and make it all the easier for them to lead you astray.

Demonstrate your dedication by living by example. Don't preach. Just like you weren't ready to take on healthy goals at other times in your life, those you love or care about may not be ready now.

Also, plan ahead. Think of how you will say no, prepare alternatives or plan an "escape route". Do what you have to do to take care of yourself.

Be honest. Talk about your goals and what they mean to you. And choose who to spend time with. You may choose to spend less time with someone who has unhealthy habits. And more time with people who make you feel good about yourself, support your efforts, or are themselves models of positivity and self-care. As time goes by and your daily practices become more of a habit, you'll be able to focus on your path towards your goals without even thinking about it.