Graduation ceremony

The graduation ceremony is held on wed, 28 may 08. But why don't I feel excited about it? In fact, I don't feel like going.....

C camp planning

Early this year, hx wanted to opt for BZZ LY so hx decided to gave up camp planning. However, when hx told QY about this, she reminded hx not to neglect my family and personal growth. This really make hx think thrice. THanks to QY. After careful consideration, hx decided to go back to camp planning.

Last year, 4 JQs (including hx) from hx de shu opt for C camp planning. Therefore, hx was 'squeezed' out of C camp. This year, amazingly, no one want to opt C camp so hx opt for it. haha. no competition. Therefore, hx is in C camp planning now. yeah!

Think is Lao mu arrangement as this year C camp theme seems to speak to hx. hx had to be pushed to move forward and C camp aims to be proactive and be prepared to 'BAO EN'. QY is right to say that hx will learn alot from this camp. Fighting spirit is slowly but hopefully steadily coming back to me. Sole belief in Lao Mu is very important. I believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky...

I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT...

Why do I feel so helpless?

I had never thought that I will create this blog and never thought that anyone will actually want to link me in their blog. A lot of things had happened and I had never thought of them. Didn't want to say too much but I really felt very helpless.
However, I can't treat it as nothing had happened. Don't want people to worry about me but seems that I had create a lot worries. Escaping is not the way to solve any problem but it seems that I am running away from it and afraid to face them.
Am I able to get over all this? I am not very sure. Don't like this feeling at all. I wanted to be in full control but I am not, in fact, I am being controlled by all the problems. I am not even sure that I am putting this up on the blog. if it was private, I won't hesitate but I am hesitating now. Haiz. Do I sound very negative? Ya, I know I do. Fengming TZ was correct, hx didn't 100% believe in Lao Mu. But how to be 100% believing in Lao Mu? What should hx do??? LMCB, please give hx the wisdom. Hx can't be in this state for long as it won't do any good but only harm...

Clearly me

Cleaning: Outside and In

When you feel upset, discouraged or out of control, do you feel the desire to clean? There's a deep connection between our personal environment and our innermost selves. Our senses reach deep, and those same senses also feel our surroundings. So is it possible that by shifting the arrangement of our belongings we can re-arrange the molecules of our emotional lives as well?
When our homes become cluttered and disordered, other aspects of our lives also tend to feel stuck. A cluttered home reflects a distracted and cluttered mind, and it also makes it hard to focus and think clearly. It gets easier to put on hold decisions that could put you back in control of your life. Eventually, we give up. The task seems overwhelming, and the clutter is so pervasive that we can't decide where to begin.
Clutter saps your energy and erodes your spirit. Clutter makes it difficult to get things done, enjoy peace and quiet, or spend time the way you really want to. It adds to your stress, slows you down and drains your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual strength. Clutter makes you lose your focus, and that makes you lose your confidence and power as well.
On an energetic level, all this stuff is preventing a clear vision of self. Anything that is neglected, unwanted, or unappealing to you will drag your energy down every time you look at it. Even a beautiful object of great value does nothing for you or your home if you don't like it. So if you don't love it, get it out of sight.
Look around you. If you could only choose ten items to live with for the rest of your life, what would they be? When you're considering this question, ask yourself - What do they really do for you? Do they empower you? Are they motivating you to improve yourself?
Everything that surrounds you should be working for you in some way. If the things in your space are not supporting you and contributing to the positive quality of your life, it is time to do something about it!
The defeat, fatigue, and depression that you feel when you think about your clutter will start to evaporate as soon as you put yourself in action. The hard part is getting started, but once you do the magic will begin.
Clutter-clearing creates space for us to discover our true path in life and to define who we want to become. With this new vision we can consciously choose to surround ourselves with objects and imagery that reflect and support our authentic concept of self.

Be Open to Possibilities

When you imagine your future, do you see unlimited potential or do you see a lack of opportunities? Almost everyday, we are overrun by bad news, bleak outlooks, and people who complain about how miserable their lives are. In such a climate, it's no small task remaining upbeat and optimistic. But it is precisely that kind of positive attitude that will open your eyes to the opportunities that are always present.
Many of the circumstances appear to block us only because of the assumptions we make. In other words, if we colour our view of the world with negative energy, our behaviour towards it will appear to elicit an unfavourable response. If you look at your environment through cracked and grimy glasses, you won't see a pretty picture.
When you participate in negative dialogue, either with yourself or with others, you are setting yourself up for failure. It's almost as if there's an instinct to prove oneself right, and if you think things will turn out badly, your thoughts and action will contribute to that result. When you retreat from a world you perceive as grim, you're closing yourself off to the possibilities.
But what happens if you remain open to the possibilities? When you view the world from a perspective of unlimited potential, your attitude will shift. So will the way you engage your employees, customers, friends and family; everyone you come into contact with. You will project an image of abundance, and your drive and hope will inspire those around you. You will become a motivating force in a climate of openness and courage, a climate that gives back to you just as much, if not more, than what you gave to create it.
When we're open to possibilities, we see further and are more inclined to take risks. Risks that may not always yield the results we want, but which create more paths towards our goals. You're only a failure if you stop trying. Because opportunities for success are limitless - when one doesn't pay off the way you imagined, there's always the next, and the next. One of them will be the one to catapult you forward, and it could just be the next one.
Being open means that you have to stand confident in the realm of possibilities - no matter the competition and no matter your fear. If your entire focus is on what your competitors are doing, your attitude will be passed on to your employees, and, ultimately, your clients. But if you focus on what you do best and how to better satisfy your clients and engage with them in new and powerful ways, your results will be quite different!

The Starfish Story

Once upon a time, there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.
One day, as he was walking along the shore, he looked down the beach and saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself at the thought of someone who would dance to the day, and so, he walked faster to catch up.
As he got closer, he noticed that the figure was that of a young man, and that what he was doing was not dancing at all. The young man was reaching down to the shore, picking up small objects, and throwing them into the ocean.
He came closer still and called out "Good morning! May I ask what it is that you are doing?"
The young man paused, looked up, and replied "Throwing starfish into the ocean."
"I must ask, then, why are you throwing starfish into the ocean?" asked the somewhat startled wise man.
To this, the young man replied, "The sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don't throw them in, they'll die."
Upon hearing this, the wise man commented, "But, young man, do you not realize that there are miles and miles of beach and there are starfish all along every mile? You can't possibly make a difference!"
At this, the young man bent down, picked up yet another starfish, and threw it into the ocean. As it met the water, he said, "It made a difference for that one."